Oh...My...GOD

What happened in the past month? I can't process it yet...it just happened so fast. I met him, i fell in love, i got in trouble with my entire family, failed my first year at UBC, and now...i can't live without him. I feel so so so so terrified :(. God please help me!!!
England trip was really nice though. I discovered many things about myself and others. Most of all, i discovered this guy. He's awesome :(. But i have no clue what God wants for me next. I hope it's him or else it'll be too cruel to do that to me. I can't stand this...my heart aches...my whole body aches for his touch. I miss himmmmmm!! I can't live like this. I need him; I need my baby..