Pros and Cons of going to England

Pros:
My baby
I got kicked out of UBC so i have to go there
atmosphere is better
cuter guys
less competition from fat english girls
freedom
living on my own would make me more mature
club scene
working hard will make me appreciate my money's worth and make me study harder

Cons:
No parents
expensive
living on own holds hidden challenges
No barriers to hold me in line; might run wild
have to work hard
Mommy would be worried and lonely; nobody to check up on her
close to aiya; might be called to look after kids often, might be closely monitered etc.

Oh...My...GOD

What happened in the past month? I can't process it yet...it just happened so fast. I met him, i fell in love, i got in trouble with my entire family, failed my first year at UBC, and now...i can't live without him. I feel so so so so terrified :(. God please help me!!!
England trip was really nice though. I discovered many things about myself and others. Most of all, i discovered this guy. He's awesome :(. But i have no clue what God wants for me next. I hope it's him or else it'll be too cruel to do that to me. I can't stand this...my heart aches...my whole body aches for his touch. I miss himmmmmm!! I can't live like this. I need him; I need my baby..