Blood Diamond

It's okay. Whatever happens, it's not the end of the world. Sure if i lose a limb i'd be devastated (please God don't do that to me), but there's still a tomorrow. It always, always goes on. The amazing planet we live on, the mystical creatures that inhibit this planet, and the daily grind of their lives, it doesn't make any sense. There is no cohesive pattern that can be comprehended. Why some people are born rich, and others born poor. Why some live in impoverished, conflict zones in constant terror, while others have never seen a real gun in their lives. Why is this? I think it only makes sense to God, and he knows where it'll go. So there is really no point in worrying is there? Whatever happens will happen. And i am the luckiest me i could ever be, right now at this moment with tommy in UK, my parents arguing in the kitchen, my brothers 100s of miles away, my friends who are living their own lives. It's all just the way it should be. If i want to change it, i have the choice to do so. And that makes me lucky beyond all belief. And I've got to let go of my obsessive fear of failure...It is my blood diamond.