......CONFUSED......

I'm really confused right now. When I'm more emotionally and academically stable and am at a more mature stage of my life, I know I'll look back at these years and be thankful for all I learned from them. But at this moment it is sooo hard!! I'm just worried sick right now. Worried that i won't do well on the midterm, worried i'll fail my finals, worried I'll never get to meet tommy, worried I wont get into a uk uni, worried i'll keep on this path forever and never get off, worried I wont get a good job or have a good guy in my life, just plain WORRIED SICK.
I'm really emotionally banked on tommy right now. I really like him in every way. My wory is that I won't get to meet up with him in time before our romance fizzles. I mean everything needs progression right? But our relationship can't progress because there is no feasible next step for us until we meet up. We could call....yeah i'll look into that. But right now i'm sooo worried. I just can't stand another heartbreak like before. But at the same time I'm sick of repressing my joy and being scared of heartbrea and rejection. This is a great guy! One of the most wonderful guys I've ever met. I'm going to be really really devastated if this doesn't work out.