Time Out Please

Recently hockey has captured my attention to a great extent, and I have entered another "phase" in my life as my brother calls it. One thing i learned from hockey is that everybody goes through slumps. Roberto Luongo is in his prime right now, but Naslund isn't. Maybe I have missed Naslund's glory days forever, but there will always be that proverbial glimpse of greatness now and then. Maybe it isn't enough....but then again, maybe it is. It all really depends on....well nothing. Nothing depends on anything. And everything depends on no one thing. I can do horrible in school, fail miserably in every aspect of life, but bounce back in 4,5,6 or even 10 years. Nothing is truly impossible in life.
And even though you go for long periods without getting a goal, there's always you goalie to back you up. If he shuts out the other team altogether, then great, he got your back. if he doesn't, so what? All your fans will be disappointed, but they'll be back next year, keeping faith and hoping for a miracle. Life is like that, all you need is a good goalie, and some great fans. I truly need God to be my goalie...better yet, i want to be the puck and i want him to steer me towards the goal. I desperately need to go to time out, regroup, and be back with a vengence for my 19th birthday.
The problem I'm having right now is that I can't figure out for the life of me what the POINT is. And maybe there is no point. But for me, I need a goal, I need a direction to my life, I need some emotional tent pegs to hold me down you know? I really like Tommy, he's a great guy and so kind to me. Maybe he's exactly what I need, but there's always misgivings. Am i going to be bored? Well let's put that on the backburner for now because maybe nothing will come of it and I'm getting up my hopes for nothing.
I think what I really need right now is just someplace nice to dress up and go to, some great friends I can go down a margarita and chat with, a boyfriend that would take me shopping, some great courses to build up my academic confidence. I'm the type of person that needs to build up to a finale you know. I just can't jump up that high without a few practice runs. But I think everyone experiences such a slump of pointless wishy-washiness at some point or another and I just need to ride mine out. I'm just disappointed that I haven't even been kissed when a few of my more "traditional" friends have already had sex. I just need some teenage normalcy...some good-ol chick-flick style drama in my life. Some partying, youth and FUN. I just miss that...that's all.
I need to be inspired!