I made it

Looking back at the blog i wrote on April 25th especially has inspired me to blog again.

"these exams are a chance for me to prove to myself that i am all that is my conception of myself, and more. I am more than i think i am capable of. And i will stretch myself to the limit to find that very limit of excellence. I WILL DO IT!!!"

Wow, what a wonderful proclamation of self faith and love. I believed in myself during those exams more than i ever thought was possible. I pushed and i pushed and i studied so hard....i got my reward and i couldnt be happier with myself. The past year has been the most wonderful wonderful year in my life. I feel like i've matured beyond everything i had accomplished in earlier years. I loved with all my heart, i lost that love with the same intensity, the sting of rejection, the betrayal, the trust i put in myself, the friends i had and discovered and chose to lose, the confessions i made, the hot guys i liked, the exams i studied for, the results that came in, the songs he sent me....it all blurs into one big ball of a sort of maturity-inducing drug. A drug that makes me high on the wonder of life, that makes me want to strive to gobble up its deliviousness with a lust that is indescribable.

Oh those things he said to me...those songs he sent. I do believe he deliberately misled me. But i have forgiven...i know im a wonderful person because i had it in me to forgive. But all i can say at this point is
1. LOVE GOD
2. treat urself with a wonderous summer
3. look forward to a wonderful year at UBC